A very dear friend sent me a beautiful song on You Tube following my Gloom, Despair and Misery post a few weeks ago. I thought it was the kindest gesture since I needed to hear this particular song. She is a dear friend who knows what to say and when to say it — always has and always will. She said in her message she had been thinking of me and my struggles since reading my post and was searching for the correct words to help ease my pain.
While in her car she heard ‘Long Way Home,’ by Steven Curtis Chapman, and the lyrics were the something “magical she was looking for to help ease your suffering.” I could feel her love when I heard the song and knew immediately I should share the lyrics. They are the something magical I want to share with those reading My Unplanned Life.
Since beginning the blog, I have come to the conclusion each of us…no one excluded, is, was, has or will be battling some type of difficulty. It may be an illness, depression, relationship trouble or financial difficulty and the words of this song may help ease the sting of whatever you may be feeling or experiencing. Oftentimes a song, poem, or prayer may lead to a place of peace or calmness.
I set out on a great adventure
The day my Father started leading me home
He said there’s gonna be some mountains to climb
And some valleys we’re gonna go through
But I had no way of knowing
Just how hard this journey could be
Cause the valleys are deeper and the mountains are steeper
Than I ever would’ve dreamed
But I know we’re gonna make it
I know we’re gonna get there soon
And I know sometimes it feels like we’re going the wrong way
It’s just a long way home
I got some rocks in my shoes
Fears I wish I could lose
They make the mountains so hard to climb
And my heart gets so heavy with the weight of the world sometimes
There’s a bag of regrets
My should’ve beens and not yets
I keep on dragging around
And I can hardly wait for the day I get to lay it all down
I know that day is coming
I know it’s gonna be here soon
And I won’t turn back even if the whole world says I’m going the wrong way
Cause it’s just a long way home…
And when we can’t take another step
The Father will pick us up and carry us in His arms
And even on the best days
He says to remember we’re not home yet
So don’t get too comfortable
Cause really all we are is just pilgrims passing through
Well I know we’re gonna make it
And I know we’re gonna get there soon
So I’ll keep on singing and believing what all of my songs say
Cause our God has made a promise
And I know that everything He says is true
And I know wherever we go
He will never leave us
Cause He’s going to lead us home
Every single step of the long way home
Keep on, we’re gonna make it
I know we’re gonna make it
We’re just taking the long way home
Last night while reading comments on the Essential Tremor Awareness Group (ETAG) Facebook page, I came across an update from a woman who suffers from two complex neurological conditions. ETAG is a support group, with more than 2,000 members, who choose to participate share stories, ask questions, encourage each other, etc.
The woman who posted had an appointment with her neurologist earlier in the day and was told she has Multiple-System Atrophy (MSA), a degenerative neurological disorder of the nerve cells in specific areas of the brain. This cell degeneration causes problems with movement, balance, and other autonomic functions of the body such as bladder control or blood-pressure regulation. With the disease, the average lifespan is seven years. Almost 80 percent of patients become disabled within five years, and only 20 percent survive past 12 years.
I have never met this wonderful lady, but my heart is heavy. Yesterday, following her appointment, she had to tell her family she is going to die. I can’t imagine having that conversation. All I can do is pray, send her positive comments to lift her spirits and let her know she isn’t alone. It’s when I learn news like this when I realize how blessed I am. I still struggle with medical problems and will leave it at that. There are some things I am not ready to blog about, but will when the time is right.
When I think my problems are more than I can bear, God slaps me on the head letting me know I am one of the lucky ones. Why can’t I figure it out for myself? Why do I need a slap, a wake-up call? I am an educated person after all. I have a spinal cord injury and still have use of my legs seven years later. Talk about being lucky. And, I hope those reading this post also read the last one about my wonderful husband and the support he gives. Again… L U C K Y.
Thankfully I have continued my sessions with my psychologist and have to admit it doesn’t seem like therapy. However, he has yet to press my buttons. He still says all the right things. We are still in the honeymoon phase of our relationship. He did share during his career he has seen more than 14,000 patients. Somehow that extremely large number makes me feel better. Maybe it’s because I am not the only one seeing a shrink…which I knew, but hearing it from this extremely educated man is reassuring.
To me, I have come to the conclusion it’s all about balancing, which the shrink and I discuss. The good and the bad; the positive and the negative; counting your blessings. After all, I have said most of my adult life ‘every day is a good day — just some days are better!’ Now I am adding in a new line thanks to Steven Curtis Chapman: ‘ I know we’re gonna make it! After all, aren’t we all in this together?
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