Below is a poem written a few months ago by my husband following one of my recent hospital stays. I seem to get so caught up in how I am feeling I forget he is experiencing his own difficulties in dealing with our lives since my spinal cord injury. The key has been for us to face the challenges together. However, every now and then, we both have turned to writing as an outlet to express how we are feeling. This is his most recent.
It’s been six years since that horrible day
For you it seems like more
Not everyday has been so bad
But life shouldn’t be a chore!
Three years before, when we first met
You really seemed so tough
Thank God for that it helps you through
But will that be enough?
It’s hard to watch what you go through
And watch how much you pay
You do things at night while I’m asleep
And sleep away your days.
While I’m working I can hear you
Just lying there in bed
The sounds you make while sleeping
sometimes it spins my head.
I’d like to think the things you say
while talking in your sleep
are things to help me understand
what happened by that creep!
But on that rare occasion
I hear a strange loud noise
I have to do a double take
It sounds a lot like joy!
Maybe your thinking back
to our earlier days and nights
When we used to go for long walks
And everything seemed so right.
I wish I could be the one with pain
and let you live pain-free
That would be my gift to you
Would someone grant that for me?
I’m sure I couldn’t handle it
There’s no way for me to see
I’d do it without gladly just for her
Please, just let her be!
I try to keep so positive
for you and also me
We still have each others love
Maybe that’s all we really need!
To me, I have a Higher hope
At some future time and place
That God will step in and give some help
It’s all within His grace!
©My Unplanned Life and www.shakinguplife.wordpress.com 2011.